Cariweb

Time: 8:53am
Location: In bed
Status: Watching a midget sleep

Dear Diary:

If you live your life scared of your own shadow, then how do you expect to get anywhere?

I'm always hearing older people say "dont do this", "dont do that", "be careful", "dont risk it", etc.

But if you don't try something how are you going to know whether it will work or not? And unless you try it how do you know whether its what you really want or not?

I don't want to be scared of making choices. I don't want to doubt everything I do because someone else would never consider doing it out of fear of losing stability.

I'm not talking about being reckless or endangering someone elses well being.. I'm talking about for instance changing careers, going back to school, moving out of town for a job.  Stuff like that.

And I dont think it's because some people dont like changes. I think it's more that they prefer to take the safe road never deviating to see what else is out there out of fear of losing what they have. 

I don't want to be that way.

But I know as time goes by, and the older I get, and the more I'm responsible for, I will be more likely to make the safe secure choices :(